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Disorientation!!

The title so matches my state of mind at this point. "Perplexed" , that is what I am!!

Last few days, there were some major career related decisions happening at my end, I gathered my instincts and decided what I did not want, which way I did not want to go.The fact that I took some real risk still amazes me but the whole process behind the "brain digging experience" had been a tiring one. I spoke to a number of people, listened to advices, worked real hard for some things that are still unattained , and came to a conclusion. A year or more it took !!

But then I keep getting a feeling time and again, Have I planned enough,Do I really have the determination to attain those incomplete goals, those childhood aspirations and dreams. I do not remember the last time I had been so "Point blank" about any major decisions. When I prioritize, I give equal importance to family, relationships, growth, finances and what not. But, then I am unable to follow a definite path of action. If I gain on one aspect, there is loss on another....Homo Sapiens!! I say, a tough breed!!

I do not know how much sense do I make here, but then somewhere in future, when I come back and read, I should be able to recall all the stuff that made me reach a certain point in life, which I am sure I would be proud of !!

Life in bullet points !!

• There was a trip to Pondicherry in February and it was pure fun. I saw the sea for the first time in my life and I just felt like embracing those waves every time they made a rush....It made me realise what a tiny thing I am in the big big universe !!
• There have been major moments of disappointment at work. The uncontrollable situations make me mad. Where you just can't do anything,because it does not depend on you....but then it affects my work, and I always thought my work will always be the way I want, Hmph :( !!
• March is work,work and work. And March is also for some big things in April (can't disclose now though) but I need to work up the month of March in the best way possible..I cannot handle mediocrity, I have to try the best shot,Pray for me please .....will you ?
• I suddenly feel the lack of close-friends-since-years around me. Some settled abroad and some are planning to. I suddenly feel the lack of people with whom I have spent 7 precious years of my life....at times it is heart breaking but then I am happy that my best friends have made it to what they aimed at, anti-jinx to that. 
• I have started loving oranges and water-melons like never before. Its been a month that I have to have one or the other daily. I love to cook as always , even if its the simplest things, Makes me happy :)
• I have seen the worst cases of hypocrisy in the past few days, and it irritates me to the core. Why double standards when nobody judges anybody ?
• So many friends are getting married and I love to see them shopping for pretty things, setting up there homes from scratch, the beam in their eyes when they talk about their "own" homes, Bliss !!

I could not help but smile :)

A random telephonic conversation with the little sis goes as below :

Sis : Hi, What's up ?
Me : Nothing, just walking back from office.
Sis : Arey, just called to ask you, you wanted a casual skirt na, something knee length, rap around style ??
Me : Haan, tried at so many places, no luck yet....
Sis : I have seen one at XYZ store, it is the same style you wanted and has every colour on earth on it, would go with any top you wear, but then the size is XL ( and goes on....)
Me : I don't want, you buy if you like it, anyways I don't want to get into the alteration issue....I just don't find the time to get it done and those clothes keep lying in my closet untouched for months....Don't get it for me please..
Sis : Arey waise bhi you are not coming home for 2-3 months....I ll get it....
Me: (interrupting) I said na don't get for me...
Sis : I ll get it altered till you come....
Me : No, I don't want something that does not fit me,I really don't want...
Sis : Don't give stupid reasons, I am getting it for you....
Me : Don't argue yaar, told you I don't want, No means No....
Sis bangs the phone and I thought it was an end to the issue....

The very next day on G-talk :
Me : You reached office?
Sis : Ya, forgot to give you a call ....
Me : That's OK,but don't forget tomorrow onwards(She is at an internship in a new city, so that's a ritual we follow just to ensure she has reached office safely.)
Sis : Sure baby....and yes....You may get angry but don't get angry....OK....

I got the skirt for you....Because 

1. It was pretty 

2. It was rap-around style 

3. You won't get it at a flat 50% off

4. I wanted to buy something for you

5. I will get it altered and you will receive it in your size only

So, No fights.....

and Yes,

 6. I told mom I am buying the skirt...and she was on my side... :)

Now, what could I do except smile. :)

In the name of God ....

The day woke me up a little early than usual and after the running around for breakfast,ironing clothes and getting ready for office, had a good half an hour in hand,So, decided to pay a visit to the nearby temple I have been trying to go to since a long time..Reason,the looks of it, seemed to me like a pretty old temple, a big wide door to the entrance and big courtyard walls to the sides,Yes yes i like those kind of buildings :)

So landed inside the temple with a backpack and it was nice.... though seemed like not very well maintained....offered my prayers and put some money in the "aarti thali" and was about to leave when the priest came and asked me to wait for a while, I did not really know what for, because here in Bangalore I usually find kannada speaking priests and it is a difficult task to converse without a common language....but here the priest knew hindi to an extent and started asking me my name,"gotra" and my birth star of which the latter two I did not know ;) Further to that he questioned me about my company and salary ??#@ which sent some negative signals to my instinct....I preferred to lie about both..After all that question session he took me to each individual temple, recited some sanskrit shlokas and asked me to repeat them. At the end of it took out the money I kept in the thali , asked me to put it in his hands,and finally permitted me to leave....

 I came out but was left wondering, the priest did not care for all the pooja stuff until I put money in the "aarti thali" . Pondering over the whole thing, I walked back to workplace but then the event lingered in my mind for long until I narrated the whole thing to a colleague who stays close by the temple. She told me that they don't visit the temple because of the priest's greed, he expects all those who come to offer money to the extent he bars kids to enter the temple without money....I was left speechless.... at how people manage to loot in the name of God, and from where on earth they manage the guts to bar little kids to enter the temple..

I felt foolish for all that drama he did in the name of God....a very small incident but then left me mulling over....A country like India with so many pilgrim centers.... so much faith in the name they carry ....left to the    mercy of greed. Does that serve right to the holiness,purity and heritage of the places or to the faith of people? Or it is that blind faith takes over faith, we know, we understand but we don't question, even I did not....but it would have been better If I would have offered the money to someone in need rather than offering it to a fake priest .... Lesson learnt !!!!

Tea for two (and a piece of cake) Tuesdays !!!! My entry :)

My entry for the creative prompt hosted by Preeti Shenoy ...

If I have to invite anybody for tea,today it would undoubtedly be my Mom....I just can't connect the tea times with anyone else....I miss the usual chit chat I had over the evening tea with her....the way we discussed the day's proceedings at school and at home,discussions about life and family and career and art and what not....Many a times friends joined us for tea and the lovely time we had. I miss her at tea time in office where I just pick the phone to ask her if she's had her tea....and I look forward to those evenings whenever I am home....I miss you Ma and tea times just remind me of you....